Wednesday, February 23, 2011

The Grip. Oh, let me blog. @ 11:10 PM

A personal note from me, no, a blog. I don't know how to start. Things come so sudden and it sometimes hurts na. I feel so ashamed of myself. I can't say so much. I don't know if this is right or wrong. I just want this, this!

Okay. Calming down.....

I feel so bad of this. I want to explain, express my mind explosion. I want to burst it to everything, everyone, anything! Am i wrong or i'm just so stubborn?

Things get bad when I don't shut my mouth. I feel miserable now, for saying something making things so unexpectedly unhealthy. Sorry. The word I couldn't realize what the meaning is. It's hard to show myself so sorry for things i have just done.

Should I lose the grip i don't know is so tight? The grip.

I didn't realize until now, until I wanted to try but I couldn't. If i loosen it, the "gripped" might break out. It's hard to do it. So just hard. Please don't.

I want to show you my heart so generously pumping so much blood, it is just so red.. Hayy. I want to cry, no, dissemble! If that is even a word. I want to climb the mountains to reach relaxation from the air, but the hike is quite difficult to take. I couldn't give up. I want to pursue it, to feel the air up there..

I may loosen it for a while but it may still happen as time goes by. Am I bringing the grip away from the nature? away from happiness you HAD before? Am i doing it too early? or am i just obsessed?

Oh God, I need Your guidance. Please let me know the real thing to do as my first step. Please help me through this. You are my only Secret Diary, I couldn't tell things but to You. I thank You.

well, I'm sorry please forgive me. :(

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Kinaya man ang hirap, sana huwag sumuko sa unos, at huwag kumalas sa bagong bukas. :((

Sad night.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

The Grip. Oh, let me blog. @ 11:10 PM

A personal note from me, no, a blog. I don't know how to start. Things come so sudden and it sometimes hurts na. I feel so ashamed of myself. I can't say so much. I don't know if this is right or wrong. I just want this, this!

Okay. Calming down.....

I feel so bad of this. I want to explain, express my mind explosion. I want to burst it to everything, everyone, anything! Am i wrong or i'm just so stubborn?

Things get bad when I don't shut my mouth. I feel miserable now, for saying something making things so unexpectedly unhealthy. Sorry. The word I couldn't realize what the meaning is. It's hard to show myself so sorry for things i have just done.

Should I lose the grip i don't know is so tight? The grip.

I didn't realize until now, until I wanted to try but I couldn't. If i loosen it, the "gripped" might break out. It's hard to do it. So just hard. Please don't.

I want to show you my heart so generously pumping so much blood, it is just so red.. Hayy. I want to cry, no, dissemble! If that is even a word. I want to climb the mountains to reach relaxation from the air, but the hike is quite difficult to take. I couldn't give up. I want to pursue it, to feel the air up there..

I may loosen it for a while but it may still happen as time goes by. Am I bringing the grip away from the nature? away from happiness you HAD before? Am i doing it too early? or am i just obsessed?

Oh God, I need Your guidance. Please let me know the real thing to do as my first step. Please help me through this. You are my only Secret Diary, I couldn't tell things but to You. I thank You.

well, I'm sorry please forgive me. :(

____________
Kinaya man ang hirap, sana huwag sumuko sa unos, at huwag kumalas sa bagong bukas. :((

Sad night.