Monday, October 25, 2010

I am so stupid :(( @ 8:23 PM

It is broken, but i will FIX it..

My world has been so wonderful since you came. I have learned so much socially, emotionally, mentally, etc..

Once, i had the chance to feel this, but it was not for real. It was ... temporary . I felt like it was something to remember, but i realized, it's something worth throwing out of my life. I did not regret it anyway, since it is the best thing i ever did.

I left my old life hanging in the hands of others. I left it not because i want to, but because, God let me feel what the real world really means. It was something I should be proud of. I have changed a lot for the better.

Then came the rainy days of my life, lonely i faced it. No one to talk to but Him, beloved Father. I thought i wouldn't be able to take and face it, because I felt so down, sad and emotional. It hurts to the bones!

When I needed something or someone to hold on, you came. You made me feel that the song line "there's a rainbow always after the rain" by SouthBorder, was just so real. You are the rainbow THROUGH the rainy days i had. You were then the reason of every smiles i had. Hence, you were the reason why i am still striving for the better ME.

Mistakes do come in people, right? All these have just one purpose, to learn. That's why, every mistake i commit onto you, i ask for forgiveness and that I'll tell myself not to repeat it. So, i tried, and fortunately, i had improved. I know.

Whenever i talk to myself about the "US", only one thing came across my mind, I can't afford to lose you, because, you're priceless. You even introduced me to the Heavenly Father, how to put Him in our hearts as to not make Him jealous. So to you, I won't make you jealous. That's what I told myself, because, I have known you for almost a year and a half, and I won't let you be hurt.

I know you know that I love you.. Sometimes, fights exist in us, because as you said, we love each other. I have loved you so badly, i couldn't let you go...

Yes, indeed, i have been stupid once in a while and very immature, but loving you is the truest above all truths :( You may deny it yourself but i know, you can feel it so much. I have never wanted you to cry. I miss you. :(

I may be a burden to you, but you will always be the treasure to me ...
I will always be here for you, I love you :)

.♥.arak3nah.♥.

Monday, October 25, 2010

I am so stupid :(( @ 8:23 PM

It is broken, but i will FIX it..

My world has been so wonderful since you came. I have learned so much socially, emotionally, mentally, etc..

Once, i had the chance to feel this, but it was not for real. It was ... temporary . I felt like it was something to remember, but i realized, it's something worth throwing out of my life. I did not regret it anyway, since it is the best thing i ever did.

I left my old life hanging in the hands of others. I left it not because i want to, but because, God let me feel what the real world really means. It was something I should be proud of. I have changed a lot for the better.

Then came the rainy days of my life, lonely i faced it. No one to talk to but Him, beloved Father. I thought i wouldn't be able to take and face it, because I felt so down, sad and emotional. It hurts to the bones!

When I needed something or someone to hold on, you came. You made me feel that the song line "there's a rainbow always after the rain" by SouthBorder, was just so real. You are the rainbow THROUGH the rainy days i had. You were then the reason of every smiles i had. Hence, you were the reason why i am still striving for the better ME.

Mistakes do come in people, right? All these have just one purpose, to learn. That's why, every mistake i commit onto you, i ask for forgiveness and that I'll tell myself not to repeat it. So, i tried, and fortunately, i had improved. I know.

Whenever i talk to myself about the "US", only one thing came across my mind, I can't afford to lose you, because, you're priceless. You even introduced me to the Heavenly Father, how to put Him in our hearts as to not make Him jealous. So to you, I won't make you jealous. That's what I told myself, because, I have known you for almost a year and a half, and I won't let you be hurt.

I know you know that I love you.. Sometimes, fights exist in us, because as you said, we love each other. I have loved you so badly, i couldn't let you go...

Yes, indeed, i have been stupid once in a while and very immature, but loving you is the truest above all truths :( You may deny it yourself but i know, you can feel it so much. I have never wanted you to cry. I miss you. :(

I may be a burden to you, but you will always be the treasure to me ...
I will always be here for you, I love you :)

.♥.arak3nah.♥.